hello, my name is judiclaire, and I am sinner.
This sin has damaged me. I am not the clean slate I was when I was born, and the only time I will ever return to that is at the Pearly Gates. Every human being on this earth is damaged due to their sin. That’s how we were designed. God designed us with free will knowing full well humans would ruin that. The first two humans on earth were damaged. Adam and Eve still ate from the forbidden tree, even after God only gave them one rule, which was distinctly not to eat the fruit.
God designed humans knowing they were going to be damaged, but that doesn’t make my damage any easier.
Damage is something all of us have. It’s as much a part of us as our fingerprint. I’ve never heard a testimony that started “I have remained perfect throughout my whole life”
The thing is, people are judgy, and Christians choosing not to accept damage is one of the main turn offs for church.
Read this passage from John 8 (MSG)
To Throw the Stone
1-2Jesus went across to Mount Olives, but he was soon back in the Temple again. Swarms of people came to him. He sat down and taught them.
3-6The religion scholars and Pharisees led in a woman who had been caught in an act of adultery. They stood her in plain sight of everyone and said, “Teacher, this woman was caught red-handed in the act of adultery. Moses, in the Law, gives orders to stone such persons. What do you say?” They were trying to trap him into saying something incriminating so they could bring charges against him.
6-8Jesus bent down and wrote with his finger in the dirt. They kept at him, badgering him. He straightened up and said, “The sinless one among you, go first: Throw the stone.” Bending down again, he wrote some more in the dirt.
9-10Hearing that, they walked away, one after another, beginning with the oldest. The woman was left alone. Jesus stood up and spoke to her. “Woman, where are they? Does no one condemn you?”
11“No one, Master.”
“Neither do I,” said Jesus. “Go on your way. From now on, don’t sin.”
I’m not sure if you caught that the first time, so I’ll say it again
“The sinless one among you, go first; go first: Throw the stone.”
No one in the world is undamaged, either by their own damage, or damage caused by other people. That’s the thing about this life. It’s full of challenge and heartbreak and damage. Not only by non Christians either. Anyone who is a follower of Jesus knows that accepting Christ does not mean accepting that everything in your life is going perfect. It’s not a one way ticket to happiness and joy, and a perfect life. It’s a step, but life is still going to throw you around.
Anne Lamott tells it true: “It’s okay to realize that you’re crazy and very damaged. All the best people are.”
Grace comes before damage, before judgement, before heartbreak.
It is God’s kindness that leads to repentance, not repentance that leads to God being kind.
Everyone has some cracks in their interior, where darkness finds a way in. It’s just a thing that’s going to happen. But we have a mighty tool at our disposal. Please help other people fill their cracks too.
Damage and Love and Kindness all go hand in hand. They are certainly not mutually exclusive topics, and definitely should not be treated as such.
1 John 4:19: We love because He first loved us.